YEA!!! Sunny and warm today.

I got up early this morning and puttered around the house. I contacted my cousin via facebook to tell her I was definetly going to her mother's pool at about 11:30. she wrote back that she would be there by 12. So I got some stuff done around the house and packed to go. I actually left the house at 11 but stopped at the store to pick up some snacks.

It was a nice day. Warm sun and cool water. I had to leave there by 2 to get to my brother's apartment to meet up with my cleaning lady who was going to help me pack up some stuff. We accomplished quite a bit so now I am feeling better about the task of getting his stuff out by the 31st of July.

Today was three weeks since my brother died. I haven't really had a crying spell since the weekend. They say it will get easier, but who are they and what do they know. I feel guilty when I am not sad and almost like if I am not sad then I will lose the memory of him. He was mentioned in his office newsletter. He worked for a major department in the state and the newsletter would have gone to thousands of people. there was a picture of him in a golf cart with one of his golf buddies.